Mea Culpa- a found poem

No. Scary

I know the truth. The truth isn't what I said.

The truth isn't what was out there.

I was used to controlling everything in my life,

I made my decisions.

All the fault and all the blame here falls on me,

I'm paying the price and I deserve this.

This story was so perfect for so long,

one race mattered for me,

it was win at all costs.

That desire, that attitude, that arrogance,

I was the leader of the team and the leader leads by example.

No. Even scarier,

they gathered all of the evidence and they came to me

and said what are you going to do?

I was on the attack,

I was just on the attack.

I thought I was out of the woods,

and those were some serious wolves.

No. The scariest.

I'll spend the rest of my life trying to earn back trust,

and apologize to people,

they are good people, we've all made mistakes,

they are not toxic and evil.

One of the steps of this process is to say sorry.

I was wrong, you were right.

Yes.

I didn't know what I had. Look at the fallout

if there was truth and reconciliation commission,

and I can't call for that,

if they have it and I'm invited

I'll be first man through the door.

References

Winfrey, O. (Interviewer) & Armstrong, L. (Interviewee).  (2013, January 18). Lance Armstrong's interview with Oprah Winfrey [Interview transcript]. Retrieved from The Telegraph: http://www.telegraph.co.uk/sport/othersports/cycling/lancearmstrong/9810801/Lance-Armstrongs-interview-with-Oprah-Winfrey-the-transcript.html